You must acknowledge the change...

As I sit here in a overwhelming emotional state I wonder what happened and why did I not see this coming. No, nothing happen to me or anyone else but then again yes it did everything happened. A year ago if you asked me where I would be a year from now I don't think I would have given you the right answer. I had my best friends around me constantly. They loved when it was hard to love, they laughed and cried, danced and sang. They were my support, my go to girls when I needed help and let's face it I always need help. I am not good at a lot of things and I am ok with that. When May 3, 2008 came closer and closer, I never acknowledge it. I didn't want to think about how my life would change. 4 years, I had lived with these girls and 4 years, they were my family. When we moved out on May 3, 2008, I never cried and all through the summer, and part of fall I never thought about how hard it is for me to be apart from my 4 best friends. I was busy with trips, jobs, family, moving and of course the many weddings. For the past couple months something has been bothering me. I never knew what it was or better I never tried to figure out what it was because I was scared of what God was going to show me. Today, as I spend time with myself (something that I do a lot lately) I realized (as I started crying when I was moving my dresser) that I miss my 4 best friends. Things are different, things have changed! Yes, we are still friends although only 2 of us live in Florence. And yes we still talk although it's not every day like it was for the past 4 years. But things have changed. On May 3, 2008, I never acknowledged the change. I didn't know things were going to change. I know it sounds silly but it's been 9 months and I am just now coping with the goodbyes I had to say on May 3, 2008. I wish I would have acknowledged the change then...

I want God to stick out all over!

It's amazing how God will show you things when you least expect it. I was teaching so pretty awesome Sr. High girls last night and for the past couple weeks we have been talking about having a Mary heart in a Martha world. We have been talking about what it means to be intimate with God and being real with yourself. I have learned so much while teaching this small group session the past couple weeks, but tonight God really showed me something and it has been ringing in my head ever since. We were talking about if people saw Jesus in us and I told the girls a story that was in Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World.
The story starts out about a Priest preaching about how everyone should ask Jesus into their heart. After the priest is done a little boy runs to him and says to the priest, "Sir, you were talking about people asking Jesus into their heart...right?" The priest replied with a soft yes and then said to the little boy, "Have you asked him into your heart?" The little boy replies with, "Well, I got to thinking, Jesus is so big and I am so little, so if I ask him he's going to stick out all over!" The priest just nodded his head and said, "That's the point, that's the point."

THAT IS THE POINT!

God is so big and we are so little when we ask him to come into our hearts he has to stick out all over and how great is that because everyone can see him if he sticks out all over!

So my question is...Are you letting God stick out all over? or Have you compacted him into a small space so he won't stick out all over and no one can see him?

I finally listened...maybe everyone was right

I use to blog all the time and then I kinda got away from the whole blogging thing. I have been encouraged by so many to blog. So I am back and we will see how this goes. I have had a lot weighing on my heart and mind and this may actually help get it all out. I will warn you I am a bottle of emotions. I feel all kinds of emotions all the time. You might not know what you are in-store for but let's be friends and see where it takes us.

Thanks for listening
KP