You must acknowledge the change...

As I sit here in a overwhelming emotional state I wonder what happened and why did I not see this coming. No, nothing happen to me or anyone else but then again yes it did everything happened. A year ago if you asked me where I would be a year from now I don't think I would have given you the right answer. I had my best friends around me constantly. They loved when it was hard to love, they laughed and cried, danced and sang. They were my support, my go to girls when I needed help and let's face it I always need help. I am not good at a lot of things and I am ok with that. When May 3, 2008 came closer and closer, I never acknowledge it. I didn't want to think about how my life would change. 4 years, I had lived with these girls and 4 years, they were my family. When we moved out on May 3, 2008, I never cried and all through the summer, and part of fall I never thought about how hard it is for me to be apart from my 4 best friends. I was busy with trips, jobs, family, moving and of course the many weddings. For the past couple months something has been bothering me. I never knew what it was or better I never tried to figure out what it was because I was scared of what God was going to show me. Today, as I spend time with myself (something that I do a lot lately) I realized (as I started crying when I was moving my dresser) that I miss my 4 best friends. Things are different, things have changed! Yes, we are still friends although only 2 of us live in Florence. And yes we still talk although it's not every day like it was for the past 4 years. But things have changed. On May 3, 2008, I never acknowledged the change. I didn't know things were going to change. I know it sounds silly but it's been 9 months and I am just now coping with the goodbyes I had to say on May 3, 2008. I wish I would have acknowledged the change then...